Or Maybe Just Crazy ;-)

I have been reflecting on some conversations I have had lately, and I am starting to think I might have multiple personalities. I go from being really excited about some little mundane thing to right out pissed off at The Unmentionable to OHMIGOD you wouldn't believe this - Like, TOTALLY!! *Twists Hair*

There is so much going on in my life right now. Conversations with my close dear friends (the people that know about this site) often include trains of thought that make me a new young adult, the soon to be divorcee, and the person who is experiencing life.

One moment I feel like an 18 year old, out of the house for the first time. The other night I made a pretty darn good dinner for myself and I completely made it up on the spot - no recipe, no ideas from the internet. Does not really sound like a big deal, right? I have always been the type to only follow a recipe, with no exceptions or substitutions. There was too much worry about what if I did it wrong or what if those spices didn't mesh? The other night, I made a batter and breading for cubes of chicken, cooked up some veggies and a sauce and it all worked out. I could not believe it!

Other moments I have to deal with the reality of my current "marital situation." It was another doggie visitation weekend, meaning I had to see The Unmentionable twice. It went ok, minus getting stuck in traffic because of the rain. I have spent MUCH of this week on the phone and at the fax machine and writing and receiving emails about financial crap.

Happier moments I am so freaking bubbly about certain other situations and ongoings that I can not contain myself. Then I think, can I truly be this happy about this?! But so much is uncertain!

I have a note posted on my office desk that says to "Just focus on today." I have always been a planner and that is really hard when I have no clue what the future holds. So, in the meantime, I'll just jump on the roller coaster and see where it brings me, or what personality I take on.