Guess Again

I have recently realized that all I do these days is second guess myself - over and over. I look for other people to acknowledge and confirm my decisions. I have always been "extra-careful" about any decisions I have made. But I am down right terrified to the core that I will make mistakes and bad decisions again. I should not be scared of that, everyone makes mistakes, everyone makes bad decisions. No one can be right all the time. It is getting to the point that anything I do takes several times longer than it should. It is starting to ooze into all parts of my life, including work. I am driving myself crazy thinking, re-thinking, analyzing again and again, working and re-doing. I suppose I am hoping that realizing this is a good first step. I know somewhere inside of me I have the confidence to make decisions on my own. I just have to find it again. I will, eventually.