Frustrated

I am tired. Every time I feel like I might be starting to pull around, to get my feet under me, to get things under control - something else happens. I know that life happens. I know that I would not be given any more challenges than I can handle, but honestly, could use a break.

However, I even tried to take a break, I got out of town for a week. For five days of the eight I was gone I was tried like either a six year old or that invalid that is going through a divorce. Also, all of those five days where so crammed backed with activities that I had to sleep for two days when I returned home, just to start to catch up.

And now - now I need all new rims (wheels) AND tires for my car that is not even two years old. I am trying to see if I can get insurance to cover the THOUSANDS of dollars it is going to cost to repair the car.

Christmas is right around the corner and I have no clue what I am going to do. I am not sure I can bring myself to go and stay with the people that are set on treating me like a little child and not the 30 year old I will be in a month. There are other people that I am not certain and I handle setting my eyes on right now, for various reasons. But I do not want to sit at home, alone, like the crazy chihuahua lady. Do I just suck it up? Or is that giving in like I have done for the last several years of my life?

I can not get my head on straight. I can not think anything through. I can not focus. I am losing patience with the things in my life I know I need to be patience with. I am just tired.

Now I feel like Mega SuperWhiner. But I guess that is part of why I have this site. So I can vent, I can think things through and get things out.